Thursday, September 25, 2008
Really, i found out what things i can do, and what things i cannot do.
The things i can do, are things that i do in faith, i pray and do it with the peace of God, and i will do it with excellence.
The things i cannot do, and i always fail in doing, are things i do with my own strength, i did not pray and do it with the peace of God, and i failed doing it from the very start.
Faith, is not something you need to cultivate for years. It is something of a split second, it really depends on how fearful or prideful are you.You will have faith if u do not fear. It is always from faith to faith, and it will grow as ur fear diminish. I feel so blessed, that i was in such darkness in the past, because of that i cherished light when i see it. It is so blissful to bathe in light, savouring the flavour of His glory. Because of faith i came to Christ. i still rmb, since day 1 in church, the very first step of faith to be baptized in the Holy Spirit was so life-changing.
I had just started Poly life around April, and i met my dear classmate Timothy. He was born a Christian, 18 years now. We had the same CCA and same elective modules, so we often talked alot. God really used him to talk to me. He talked to me about Jesus Christ, whom i nvr really knew who He was. Everytime Tim talked about Christ, i will feel a peace. It was then the interest to know God sparked.
My old pri sch fri Jazz was in a church, so i asked him whether i could tag along. This was how i got into City Harvest Church. The first time i went i met Bryan,Qing Sheng, Stuart and Yee Hao. They were very friendly. Praise and woships songs kept on and on, and before i knew it, i was touched by God, tears flowed down, and i nearly burst into a big cry. But i withdrew. At the very end, i responded to the call. i din't know what i was doing, it was my first day in church, but i wasn't afraid, i wasn't thinking what will happen after that, i just did it.Stuart prayed for me and i was baptized and from that day onwards my life changed.
My first cell group was at Stuart's house. I met many people, they talked to me and it was good. I still remember, Stuart prophesized over me, and it was accurate. God has revealed to him that i had a broken family, and i had resentment towards my mum, and i was a well, really hungry for His words and water. Then everyone prayed in tongues. Though i din't know really understand what tongues are about, i got excited everytime i hear tongues. I wanted it so much. And Stuart prayed with me and i prayed really hard for the gift of tongues. And there it came, my first CG meeting, i received my gift of tongues.
Things got really going and i did so many things i've nvr done b4. There was this time the phrase "Only if you are broken, God can really show His Glory upon you" came to my ears. I was so inspired by it. I prayed and prayed for myself to be broken in front of my friends, to show them God's glory. Not long after my prayers was answered. Really right in front of all my friends, a whole soccer team, i had hyperventilation and it was the scariest moment of my life, serious. At that moment i dint know what was happening, i just know i couldn't breathe properly, and i tot i was goin to heaven at the age of 17. In my heart i was prayin really hard, 'God, please save me. If you are God, save me!'. It was then, God's presence came down upon me. It was really a thrilling experience. I felt so much peace, my hyper attack was gone, i breathe normally like nvr b4, then i broke down and cried like a baby, as i am to God. I prayed in tongues in front of everyone, all non-christians, i dint care. I wanted to thank God and praise him for answering all my prayers. After i stopped, the attack came again, so i went hospital for a checkup. It was later i found out that hyperventilation wasnt fatal, but it really seemed i was dying, even to the others. You will be pressured, but you wont be squashed. It was a true turning point for me, from that day onwards this testimony was so great to me. But i believe, more great things will come my way.
Now i experienced my first fasting,first revelation,first prophesy. But there's still so many things to go. God is so vast and wide, we can nvr get enuff of him. But with faith, we can achieve many things. Look, just because of that very first step of faith i made, my life changed.
Now, what about u?
My God is limitless,
He is the beginning and the end.
His mercy flows like a flood,
and He sent His son to shed blood.
For us sinners,
to repent and be a winner.
Sing with me how great is our God,
and all shall see how great is our God.
GaGa is still loving God at 12:27 PM
